After the Touch
When you are touched by a hand full of love, you fly. Your minds goes blank and your soul soars higher and higher untill ouf of sight. People describe these moments as ‘the only thing worth living for’, but are the consequences worth it?
Nothing lasts, but nothing is lost. One day she will go away. She sill say that things are getting too serious for her or any reason she can think of at that current moment. Later she may regret it but she will never let you know, leaving your mind wounded adn thinking that it is all your fault and you have done something wrong. After the coveted touch goes away your heart will fade and become incapable of any feeling for a week at least (in the best scenario) or forever…
After the touch is gone you will think that you will never love another. And that is the worst part – when the love sickness affects your mind. You can’t think straight, you are unable to concentrate, simple operations like solving a crossword puzzle take you at least an hour. Your mind would be unable to adapt to the fact that she is gone. Something that has occupied your thoughts for so long is now nowhere to be found…
After the touch everything dies. You struggle to survive and swear you will never let this happen again. Then comes the touch again and the wheel is set in motion all over again…
well this is pretty pessimistic…it makes me worry because I can follow this thought, and at the moment I’m touched by this love. I can see how people get “addicted” to this touch, however, I don’t want to accept the imagination of being stuck in a vicious circle after this touched of love. Do I not want to accept the truth? or is there another way to handle it or see it?
I enjoy every moment with her, but I try not to make myself dependent on those moments. It’s hard, but I think this touch is not all love is. Real love isn’t touchable, you can’t grip or hold on to love, it’s just there, it’s in you and in everyone else, too. It needs a healthy soul to live in, an independent soul. As long as you have a place for it, it will move in and won’t be taken away from outside. As long as you bear this in mind though, it’s no harm to be touched by this love either, and of course it’s beautiful and wonderful and it’s a gift. Well that’s what I think…I think this not making oneself addicted to ANYTHING, especially this materialistic love is hard, you need to fight for it, not physical but mental. it’s the fight against self-enslaving. We need to be autark warriors of light.